How's Life?

It has been quite a while since I last updated my post. I am sorry for not updating (although I don't really feel sorry-sorry for what? It's my blog!) So, in this post, I will briefly tell my about my life for the past few months.

Last semester, something very important happened in my life. However, I am not ready to post it here because I believe in the Internet, once you post, it stays forever. Simply put, I am really happy that it happened to my life. I appreciate it.

So, let's talk business here. In the beginning of the semester, I was so devastated emotionally. I did not have the mood to study. No excitement. No enthusiasm. Nothing. At one point, I felt like I don't want to study. I thought it is a long, useless, pointless and an excruciatingly slow process which leads to something that is not worth it. The reason? I did not get the Dean's List award last semester. I tried my best. Okay not the best, but it was somewhere near. I worked hard. I was consistent throughout the semester. But then, it just didn't happen. It just didn't. Talking about over-confident, I was so confident, so confident that I will get Dean's List that I actually bought a full set of formal attire. I was thinking of buying a suite, luckily I didn't.That was the intensity of my overconfidence. And, when I didn't not get Dean's List, I was heartbroken. So much. I could not not accept the fact that I was not in the list. It was just a list...


Being a person who ALWAYS tries to hide things, I tried to hide my feelings from everyone. From people I love, from my family and also my beloved friends. I was acting normal, which I did badly. That's why my friends were saying that I am facing problems since I was always looking sad.

Nevertheless, from my parent's support, my friends and people I love, I recovered. I realized that life must go on. 8 more semesters to go.I was happy again.

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Somehow, the pain came back during the Foundation Graduation Ceremony last Wednesday. I was so jealous of students sitting in island A. Those were students who scored GPA of 3.5 and above in the previous semester. I was supposed to be there. I was supposed to be there. I felt so bad..

Things changed when Dr. Balbir, Head of Foundation Department of UTP gave his speech. It was an impromptu one.But it managed to impress me. It motivated me. Lucky me. So, now, I want to focus in my studies, and study smartly. Hopefully I can get into the list this semester.Insyaallah.

Success never comes easy. Never. And, there would be no fun if it comes easy, don't you think so? So, study hard, smart. Do not put yourself in pressure. Enjoy your life. And pray for the best.


Kan?