*I am tired *

This post, is a general one. I am hurt very much. I am tired. Exhausted. I have the feeling that some people, or the environment is fooling me. I am tired to be the one who always have to lose.

Life has been difficult for me these few days. My fault. I spend my whole holidays studying dynamics, without thinking of the need for me to rest. Studying like it's a study week, I did not have the time to enjoy or to relax or to be happy. All the time I was thinking on how to maximize my time to study for everything.

Then the semester started, with me being the class rep have to meet two lecturers because we ME students have two clashing tests. It was a not a good meeting I must say as both the lecturers were blaming the students which in that case was me, for not telling them earlier. I say it was our fault, the ME students for not checking the E-learning frequently for any news. But then the students said the news were only uploaded in the E-learning during the mid-semester break. One of the two lecturer said he uploaded the news 1 month ago. I just do not know what to say. But before the meeting ended, we were all happy. I was happy, the two lecturers were happy too because of something that I should not disclose here.

Alhamdulillah, I managed to do well in both of the tests. By Wednesday, I was struggling to find the time for me to rest. And I did not managed to rest.

Thursday was fine.

Friday.

Many setbacks.

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And still, I have not write about what I wanted to write in the first place. Why am I so forgiving??! It hurts very much!